Listen, you don't have to have done something terrible in order for a fight to start out. With narcissists, they will do what they want, when they want.
Existing near someone who is so dysregulated is enough to knock you off balance at all times, and I don't think people talk about this part of narcissistic abuse nearly enough. Arguments are never, "I'm right, you're wrong." They're about the narcissist needing, wanting, willing for you to fall apart.
That's where they win, every single time.
You could walk in with a bunch of flowers and a peace treaty, and they'd still find a reason to burn it down.
1 Reasonable conversations to you are dramas to the narcissist
I want you to take a moment now and think back to the last time you had a conversation with the narcissist that ended up with things completely blowing up. A few questions I have for you are:
What was specifically said? What was the tone of voice of the narcissist? Did it start with a look, or did you receive a particular one? Was it something random that you said last month that kicked it all off?
Once it's all there in your mind, I want you to think about how you tried to explain yourself. You began listing these reasons you'd hoped the narcissist would find reasonable in themselves, and offer you a way out of the drama, but that never happened.
No, I didn't mean it like that! I promise I never said that! I have been through this with you so many times.
The trap that the narcissist wants you to fall into is right at the moment you answer them in this way, feeding the narrative that a conversation cannot just be two people speaking in a nice way.
It has to be dramatic with narcissists, and they will pull at that until they get what they want out of it. You aren't foolish, you just got caught in this trap the narcissist laid out for you, and this is what happens.
I had a client tell me she once spent forty minutes explaining a text message she'd sent months earlier. He'd already forgotten the text. He hadn't forgotten the reaction.
2 If you lose, it's a win for the narcissist
If you were talking with someone who wasn't interested in winning, you'll be speaking with a person who listens to you, understands you, and wants to hear what you have to say.
If they have a point to make, they will make it no problem, and there doesn't need to be raised voices or accusations thrown into the mix. Equally, you can make your point, too, and everyone gets to have their time talking.
Narcissists are alien to all of the above, and instead will only see the conversation as their opportunity to make their point they want to make. You don't matter. A narcissist doesn't really stop either, continuing to push at you until you snap and thus, an argument has begun.
They don't care about the truth that you could be screaming in their face, they just want to see you screaming, and worked up, and feeling like whatever you are saying is falling on deaf ears.
You then fall into this trap of saying or doing anything to make it stop, so you end up agreeing with the narcissist for a little bit of peace, and it works. Is that how to really go about it though? We know the answer to that is no.
Agreeing for peace isn't peace, it's a receipt. They file it away and pull it out the next time they want you smaller.
See also 6 Things Narcissists Secretly Fear After Hurting A Good Woman3 If you defend, you're already a loser
I know it's the part most people don't want to hear, but it's true all the same, and necessary to talk about. The moment you start defending yourself to a narcissist is the moment you've already lost. The logic speaks for itself:
If you defend yourself, all the narcissist hears is that you believe that you need to. You're in that role now. You're guilty, and difficult, and you always have to be the person who needs to explain themselves.
The narcissist at this point doesn't even have to be accusing you of anything big or terrible; it just needs to be a finger pointed in your direction. As you're following them around the house like you're their shadow, you're saying, "I'm sorry. I just want to make it better.
I'm trying to find the right thing to say. I don't believe we should be arguing like this. If you just let me explain…"
Why are you being so defensive? The moment you hear that back is like having this bright light shine on you.
Suddenly the argument isn't about the original thing at all. It's about you, your tone, your face, your need to defend. Sound familiar?
4 The bait is there, why do you keep chomping it?
It's because the narcissist is wired for abuse and toxicity, but you aren't. You never were. You just want to be happy, and that keeps getting interrupted by someone who is insistent on breaking your peace.
You think if you just explain yourself that the narcissist will understand and listen, but they won't. There is no misunderstanding, you've just been convinced that there is, and it's hard to get over the fact that your battle to be heard will go ignored.
Emotionally healthy people explain, and that's why you are so keen on explaining. You want to be able to find some ground you can both land on where you are okay, and where there's no conflict, but that doesn't happen.
Clarity isn't what a narcissist is after; they're after your discomfort. That means every time you explain, you are giving them permission to know they've gotten to you. They have all these tactics, and each one works.
It's like the bait that keeps on coming, and you keep on saying, "Wow, that looks great, I think I'll take a bite!"
They know which button gets you moving. A raised eyebrow, a sigh, a half sentence left hanging in the air, and off you go, explaining again.
5 Guess what? You can just … not
I know, right? It seems so crazy to think about people who are used to just standing up and trying to talk their way out of everything when the alternative is that you can choose not to.
In order for that though, you need to not care about what the outcome is, or worry about feeling guilty for not offering your reasons for this, or for that.
Justification isn't necessary, and if you're doing it to keep the peace, let me tell you, it does not need to be that way. I'm not doing this, that's all you need to say. It doesn't have to be rude or aggressive. You don't have to be cold.
It's just you refusing to participate in a moment of conflict that's designed to drain the life out of you. Of course, the narcissist will aim their drama at you and tell you that you're shutting down or changing, like it's some kind of problem.
You're impossible, do you know that?! A person who is hiding would just answer the question, but not you! You know what I say? Let them. It's unreal that you would be dragged into anything that you know the narcissist is going to always win.
My advice is to just let the narcissist say whatever it is they want to say, and you don't have to defend yourself in the slightest. When you stop, the winner shifts.
The winner becomes you, because you're the one who isn't controlled by someone who really doesn't like anything about you other than your usefulness. That can change, believe me!
Silence isn't rude. Silence is you refusing to hand over the script they wrote for you. They can perform the whole play alone if they want to.
6 The Aftermath Is Where They Really Feast
You think the argument is the worst of it. It isn't. The argument was just the appetiser. The real meal for the narcissist comes after, when you're lying awake at 2am rewriting everything you said, wondering if maybe you were too harsh, or too quiet, or too something.
That's the aftermath, and that's where they get fat.
They don't need to be in the room to keep working on you. Your own brain does the job for them, replaying their face, their words, that little sigh they did when you tried to explain. You're still defending yourself in your head hours later, days later, sometimes weeks later.
And here's the cruel bit. While you're unravelling, they're fine. They're watching a show. They're making a sandwich. They've moved on because the damage was the point, and the damage has been done.
The aftermath is the quietest form of control there is. No shouting required. Just you, alone, still trying to win a fight that ended hours ago.
7 Silence Isn't Rude, It's Oxygen
When you stop responding, stop justifying, stop chasing them around the kitchen with your reasons, something strange happens. You can breathe again. Your shoulders drop about two inches. Your jaw unclenches. That's not you being cold or shut down or whatever label the narcissist wants to slap on it.
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People are so scared of silence because they think it makes them look guilty, or bitter, or petty. Not answering feels like losing to them. In reality, silence is the one thing a narcissist cannot twist into ammunition. There's nothing to quote back at you. Nothing to replay.
Nothing to distort into a fresh accusation next week.
And your body knows. It knows before your brain catches up. That looseness in your chest when you decide not to reply to the text, not to explain the thing, not to sit through another loop of the same fight, that's oxygen.
You've been holding your breath for years without knowing.
